Things that i wanna SHOUT OuT LOuD!!

She's sayin : hey! You are my bestfriend now.

2011-11-09T04:50:00.000-08:00

oh..wow! I do not know wht to respond but a smile. It was very awkward you know..because u have confessed that you never trust a friend..hmm..

Recently many things on my mind..

Problem coming after a problem solved..so difficult..and i couldnt take it and cried in front of my laptop, hugged the big puffy pillow..:'( i really feel sorry.. i didnt mean to be rude..i didnt mean to be ignorance..and i didnt want that to happen..i wanted to help but you still need to grow up though..you re much much older than me..i do not want u to be reliable on me,whom are younger than u a lot of years..

In conclusion, i'm sorry.. :(

TRUST

2011-07-25T00:49:00.000-07:00

The trust i have in you is deteriorating.. No matter how close we can be..you'll never take me as ur close friend as ppl always tell u not to believe your friends.. i would not say you are wrong but you have to know which friend to trust ..i was so hurt when every time you tell me about that you are not going to trust your friend..And so, indirectly are u trying to tell me that you are not trusting me..? always wonder..
Since you are not trusting me..there is no reason for me to trust u because i know you would lie to me sometimes..for some ppl..i rather you tell me i'm keeping a secret for someone than u lying to me that you don't know anythg.. that's hurt..Nah..it's not the first time anyway..

hfpm~oh well.. :)

It's new! another me..

2011-04-04T05:17:00.000-07:00

Semester 3 started..

First class...

Miss Sukhbeer entered. gave us our sem 2 final result..
WOW!!!! Have never expect straight A's would happen on me..

yeah..got straight a's..but according to secondary std it would be 5B's..

all 70 plus..quite satisfied..but not really happy.. i hv no idea why..

huhff.. single ain't easy..bored..

i Thought i hv many.. but when i check..I hv nothing but a few of them which are busy with their own life..

Got to be independent back..

i thought i was healed... no.. i did not..

the scar is still there..very sad..

i feel like crying evryday..or whn i feel like to..but i scared ppl will ask me..

" why are u crying ' ? i dun like answering tht question..

because there are too many reasons for me to cry...and i dun knw hw to answer tht question..too general...

On and Off i will gt to hear sum ppl say about what my dad said bout me..

evrythg he said bout me was all positive statement..

Why he did not tell me straight to my face..?

why do i hv to listen from others,,.,,,????

why??

i regretted i did not wake him up on tht night i visit him....>.< T.T

Song of the day~

2010-11-05T01:01:00.000-07:00

"Every Breath You Take"

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I'll be watching you

O can't you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches with every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

当你

2010-11-03T22:09:00.000-07:00

如果有一天
我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天我离你遥远
不能再和你相约你
是否会发现
我已经说再见
当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说却害怕都说错
还喜欢你知不知道
如果有一天梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远
你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天我们都发觉
原来什么都可以无论
是否还会停留在这里
也许可是让我想得太多
也许该回到
没我梦里和相遇
就毫不犹豫
大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你也能成为嗜好
啦～啦～
我想对你说却害怕都说错
还喜欢你知不知道
啦～啦～

Zomg!! Six Cd's for only RM36.90!!! Ahhhhh~~~~~~!!!

2010-08-04T00:44:00.000-07:00

OOPs! out of topic..
what a colourful flower..
=)

wow....<3

Wah~!

WAH~~!!!

WOOSH~~~~!!! I'M LOVIN IT <3

Sunday which is 31/07/2010.. I managed to swipe my popular card for discount for the last day!!! XD

wanna know why am I so happy?? It is because that card expiry date is on that day!! It will be my last time to use it. I don wanna renew the card because I have my bro''s card with me XDDDDD

My new bought cds.. WEE~~!!!

FrienDs..

2010-07-15T06:56:00.000-07:00

Building relationship with friends are hard.. really hard..
I think i have many friends..when it comes to the hard time..i have nobody..
nobody to contact at all..tht time i was vry vry scared..feeling unsecured..i want a hug.. i want comfort..a nice one...i wish thr will be a good listener friend..a friend that can keep the secret between both of us..anywayz, i am sad..because i found tht i hv noboody..But there was once, my friend reminded me..you always will have HIM beside u.. =)

Now i'm a completely grown up girl..Everythg i wanna do i have to consider a lot of times..As a grown up girl and the eldest child in the family..i hv lots of thgs to do..whr i cant list..i can feel the stress..I am no longer the like last time..whr whn i laugh i really laugh out loud..whnever i feel down i hv someone to share..Fr now, it is super hard for me to tell out my feeling....and i realised i've changed a lot..
changing into a bad girl...i dun wan this to happen..i do not want to shout at ppl..i wan to be more talkative..i do not want to be quiet.. but i dun knw why i just cant... sometimes i just feel i hurt a lot of my friends.. but i am so scared or sometimes stubborn to even apologise..
So, if i hurt u..i am sorry..seriously sorry..i do not know what to say anymore..but sorry..T.T

lyric time!!

2010-06-28T23:53:00.000-07:00

"Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely"~Backstreet boys

Show me the meaning of being lonely
So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

[Chorus:]
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze upon me
Guilty roads to an endless love (endless love)
There's no control
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

[Chorus]

There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body, and soul
How can it be
You're asking me
To feel the things you never show

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why can't I be there where you are?

[Chorus]

Today isn't me..

2010-06-25T02:16:00.000-07:00

It's been very long since i blog..
Whenever i feel like blogging, its always no com or busy.. I am so desperate to find a place to hide myself : to do whatever i want to do..i feel like shouting out loud but i cant..ppl were around me..they will be thinking whts wrong with this gal..? she must be crazy..sigh..

Today i did not react like how i always do..I did not talk much..I dont feel like talking..and I dont laugh even lecturer trying to make funny joke..i was watching ppl around me laughing..and i'm the only odd ones..i did not laugh..She did realised.. but whenever she turned to me i will try all my best to at least put a 3 inche smile..sigh..

this is suffering..T.T

It is FRIDAY!!!

2010-06-03T19:21:00.000-07:00

Alright! We were supposed to hve anatomy class at eight thirty am..but the lecturer wasnt here..so..movie was one of the activity to entertain us while waiting for nxt class.. NEW MOON~~! i know its lame.. LOL!

the creativity~~~ =)

2010-05-06T02:10:00.000-07:00

okay..

lets start withthis morning..

this morning we had our final exam for study skill(ss)..The question paper ms.Ashiqin set by her wasnt really hard..it's basically common sense that's wht ppl say..but i think we still hv to study to get a better ans? not sure..i just think tht i shud study tht subject in order me to score better..

anyway, i did revised..but it was last minute revision..i revised tht sub vry early in the morning while waiting fr college bus and during the whole journey and i managed to go thru everythg..woo hoo~! praise the LORD!

I managed to finish tht paper on time but idk why i feel so tired to write the ans..

it was easy but i hv no idea to ans ntht question..sigh..its over..hopefully my marks not tht low..i wanna get distinction which is 70% and above but..after tht paper i hope tht í will get at least...AT LEAST 60%..hopefully..

okay..enuf fr the test..

after evrythg is over.. We discussed on our group performance name for the nurses celebration..which is 7th May 2010..At the same time one of our seniors wants us to think of our group specialty and themes fr our group..?okay..what were that for? i have no idea..nvm..anyway, we did came out with sth...sth great!! great as in i can say tht we are tok tok ke yo (smart in korean) lol! alright! i shall now post the results after the discussion..XD

Group name : Angel of Nurses

Specialty :

C>>COMPASSIONATE

A>>ADORABLE

R>>RESPONSIBILTIES

I>> INTELLIGENT

N>> NEVER-ENDING

G>> GAY

Now , these were the themes that we had discussed in the class..There were two themes..one for choir and dancing...

CHOIR >> REALITY AND APPRECIATE GOD'S CREATION

The song that we going to present tmr is IMAGINE by JOHN LENON? THR'S ANOTHER FEMALE SINGER SANG THIS ALSO..BUT I FRGT THE NAME..

DANCING GROUP>>APPROACHABLE AND ATTAINABLE TO PATIENT (Alright! i think i need to explain a little bit here..

There are six of us gonna dance this tmr which is SHE's RING RING RING..LOL! We didnt know that we need to come out with a theme for our performance..so this song doesnt really related to our nurses celebration..At first all of us were like..''wht's the theme fr this dance?"its like nth related lo..sigh..no matter hw we still need to come out with a theme because tmr is the nurses celebration dy..!!! argh!! nvm.. then here comes a question frm Sarah..

Sarah : Wht's the song about?

Me : sth related to call?? uhmm..ask u to be alert fr calls??*trying to translate the lyric but its hard!*

Sarah : oh! i see... hmmmm.... call bell!!!!

me : * thinking *(huh? call bell??) Ha!! yah!! ring ring ring = call bell!! XD

(but others get wht she means before i could figure out wht she means by call bell..lol!! how slow..)

Sarah : our theme - Approachable...=)

me : ha!! and attainable!! XD

Tht's the reason why we named our theme APPROACHABLE AND ATTAINABLE. =)

We are smart rite?? XD YESH! smart and never-ending happy!! LOL!!

HUNGRY~~~~!!

2010-05-05T04:07:00.000-07:00

OWH~~~am not feeling good....hungry since two hours ago..

someone: why dun wan to grab sth to eat??
me: no food..
someone: did u find?
me: no
someone:=.= why?
me: the shops here already closed >.<
~~~~~end~~~~~

me: I'M HUNGRY! *I shout while my hand rubbing on my stomach*
dad: but u just ate....!( eat some more la.. finish the food on the table ya..jia you )- in a sarcastic
way...
me: OKAY! NO PROB! LOOI YOONG~~HIM NAE SE YO!!!(korean>>go for it//fight fr it)
mum: what? what was it?
what did u say?!
me: dad said (...............*i repeated the whole story*.......)
mum: O_O LOL! alright! gambathe gambathe gambathe!*with the funny and cute action*
me: okay.. no worries.. =)
dad and mum looked the way i eat and they were speechless...of course i did not finish the food on the table..trying to control..lol..~i kept it in the fridge after i've stopped makan..
~~~~~~the end~~~~

SHE'S back!!

2010-05-04T02:04:00.000-07:00

heyss!!
its been a long time i have not update this..which already dead..LOL!!
however, will try to keep it update when i'm free..
so...........
evryone take care! =)

~~~~

2008-10-03T02:22:00.000-07:00

T.T
i wan my int back~~
don wan go for final ex.....

sweet 16??.．the craps and nonsense..

2008-06-12T03:12:00.000-07:00

爱．．
一个十六岁的小女孩．．
爱上一个人．．
很想谈恋爱．．
可是爱不简单．．

她～
不知不觉爱上那个男孩．．
决不敢和他告白．．

love is so hurt..
***********************

已经又一个月没和他联络了．．

三个月．．．

10个月．．

一年．．

．．．
．．．．
．．．．．

**************
后来．．
她总算学会了．．
如何去爱
可惜你．．早已远去．．
消失在人海．．
***************
神呀！救救我吧．．
一把年纪了？？（16）
一个爱人都没有．．
***************
她很一定很爱你．．
别把我比下去
分手也只用了一分钟而已．．
**************
音乐让我说
怎么说．．？
说说说说　说你爱我．．

老套～！

哈哈哈哈～～～！!

背影

2008-06-12T01:08:00.000-07:00

背影-KONE

我们忘了那承诺
要一起开心熬着到最后
你总是看着我笑着点着头
雨过天晴后有灿烂的彩虹
背着我你什么都不肯说
我比你还折磨 no no no no no no
影子多寂寞我
wu hu oh wu

看着你的背影发抖
难道是我给得太过沉重
oh oh 在求我放手
我是真的要的不多
怎么连牵个手都变成是奢求
wo 你不再爱我

for u 我还能爱多久你说
你说再过5秒后
你的眼透露着和他做的梦
不管我紧紧把幸福捧在手
背着我你什么都不肯说
我比你还折磨 no no no no no nonever let you go
我 wu hu oh wu

看着你的背影发抖
难道是我给得太过沉重
oh oh 在求我放手
我是真的要的不多
怎么连牵个手都变成是奢求wo
你不再爱我
想抱你却被你狠狠挣开手
我还傻傻的不敢喊痛
如果抉择让你更快乐
我 wu…会放手给你自由绝不强求

看着你的背影发抖
难道是我给得太过沉重
oh oh 在求我放手
我是真的要的不多
怎么连牵个手都变成是奢求
wo 你不再爱我....

Summary on wht i did during my holidays..

2008-06-08T05:04:00.000-07:00

24/05-->26/05
i went to st.john 3rd youth camp..
before we go to our camp site,we went to sg.besar fr the talent competition..
after the competition we went to eat seafood belanja by one elder officer..Tn.Neow..
Then, we went back to the st.john headquarter to send others back first..
Later,around 6++ oni we started our journey to our camp at Nur Lembah Pangsun..
our journey tooks 2 hours++..
we reached thr around 8pm++..
-faster eat our dinner and joined the other members-
2nd nite..
camp fire..
tht was freaking cool..
the zombies really scared me..
lolx..
and the sakai(s) were really sakai..lol..
3rd day..
Most of them cried fr a few reasons..
i didnt cry..dun knw why..
usually im sure the first to cry..loves crying..xD
small kid!! xD
whn i reached home..i bathed..
thn online..missed my pc so much..
half chatting half sleeping..and at last i slept in front of the pc..
@.@

01/06-->03/06
2nd camp..
xD
Botanic Family Church Camp 2008..
there were many mgs-ian too..
pei ghee,hannah,jas min and I!!
hahhaa..
so..im not lonely thr..=)
this was a small camp..oni 30 campers..
so we get to know everyone..
and this was my first time to swim at the beach wif my frens..
first time play bkb in the middle of the nite..
first time 4 in the morning bath..freaking cold..
first time oni slept fr three hours..
ahh~!
and the food thr was really nice..
i ate a lot..
and now im fat~! xD

on 07/06
i went picnic wif my family..
the water was freaking cold..
and there were so many ppls thr..
one accident had occured..
one man climbed up the rocks and fell..
fell behind me..
if i din support him,he will be dead now..
and..my back really hurts..
and i was carrying my sis..
luckily she is ok..
she js gt a shocked and cried thr..
aikh..
now everythg is over..
and skul is starting..
is tmr!!!
ahh~!
so fast..
sad..
nid to wait until august oni gt holiday...aik..
happy schooling day ~~!

~sad..my holiday js ended like tht~

exam... ah~~~!!

2008-05-10T03:27:00.000-07:00

~~~~~~~~~~exAm weEk~~~~~~~~~~

missing everyone of u..

2008-05-10T03:22:00.000-07:00

wif black jacket are our coaches..
frm left(standing):our coach , shiau ling , sakinah , hajjar , dalila , miss hayati(our team manager) , kim , ecah ,me!! , ikhmar and our coach..
frm left (squating) : lindah , faseha , bong , athiekah , mok , bedah , and sakinah..(we hv to sakinah thr..)lol..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~miss the moment whr we slp,play and chit chat together~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hopefully we'll meet again.. take care mssd player P-18(klang)

soFTBalL~!!!~!!!

2008-04-27T00:38:00.000-07:00

21/04- first day of the softball match..
we hv to win two games on tht day..
our first game was wif kampung jawa...tht skul gals were really violent..and their mouth
were so smelly on tht day.. the way they speak really annoyed me.. and they tried to
confuse all the newbie..they are playing dirty game..am i correct??aikh anywayz,we won
them..but it wasnt a good game for us..the next team was raja zarina..this was their first
time to send team..whn we play wif them..the kampung jawa's gals came and supported
RZ cz we won them..they tak puas hati..nvm if they cum support..again they annoyed
me...by shouting (pitcher cannot pitch,pitcher main bowling,batter cannot bat and stuff)
actually the newbie(RZ) are quite innocent..but after quite sum time they becum like
kpg jawa..aikh...sad..anywayz,we won the game again..haha..so..tues we went again fr
games..^^

22/04-second day fr the softball match..
we played wif smk meru and smk teknik..at first i was so scare..
heard tht they are quite gd..thn whn the game started.i felt it was js ok ni..hee..
thn..tht day we won meru and teknik lo..
thn we ad enter the final..hahaha..so happy..and i've made a home run on tht day..yuppi~!

on 23/04 and 24./04 we had our prac on the morning..
we prac hw to *bunn ball*(not sure the spelling)..they are a few types..anywayz, i still like batting..hehe..

ahhh~~!! finally~~!

fri 25/04- it was our final~~!!!
scary..we played wif klang utama..i was shaking like hell..cant control..
and cried..cx i tot i'm going to miss catch the high ball..scary~!!
thn...we got second lo..closing ceremony..gt medals..
then..they announced the names who hv to go on mon fr the selection..
The selection is to select 15ppl out of 25ppl to go fr msss..
so..mgs hv 6 ppls tht were selected to go fr the selection..
hopefully all will stay...mgs fight! fight! fight!
wuhuuu~~!!!!

lyrics (teardrops on my guitar)

2008-04-10T01:28:00.000-07:00

"Teardrops On My Guitar"
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

haha!

2008-04-05T05:43:00.000-07:00

yuppi! at last i can post ..
my previous blogspot cannot post anythg jor..
gt prob..dun knw wht's the prob oso..
so blur..@@
haha..nxt time this is the place i can crap many many thgs..if i'm boring sad or lonely..
of cox..i will share my happy moment here too^^..
my first post and second post are js testing whether i can post o not..haha..
hopefully not like last time..create tht acc oni can post one time..>.<
hee..

....

2008-04-04T23:02:00.000-07:00

hopefully i can post sth nxt time..
XD..

Things that i wanna SHOUT OuT LOuD!!

She's sayin : hey! You are my bestfriend now.

TRUST

It's new! another me..

Song of the day~

当你

Zomg!! Six Cd's for only RM36.90!!! Ahhhhh~~~~~~!!!

FrienDs..

lyric time!!

Today isn't me..

It is FRIDAY!!!

the creativity~~~ =)

HUNGRY~~~~!!

SHE'S back!!

~~~~

sweet 16??.．the craps and nonsense..

背影

Summary on wht i did during my holidays..

exam... ah~~~!!

missing everyone of u..

soFTBalL~!!!~!!!

最近还好吗？

最近

lyrics (teardrops on my guitar)

haha!

....

Things that i wanna SHOUT OuT LOuD!!

She's sayin : hey! You are my bestfriend now.

TRUST

It's new! another me..

Song of the day~

当你

Zomg!! Six Cd's for only RM36.90!!! Ahhhhh~~~~~~!!!

FrienDs..

lyric time!!

Today isn't me..

It is FRIDAY!!!

the creativity~~~ =)

HUNGRY~~~~!!

SHE'S back!!

~~~~

sweet 16??.．the craps and nonsense..

背影

Summary on wht i did during my holidays..

exam... ah~~~!!

missing everyone of u..

soFTBalL~!~~!!~~~!!!

最近还好吗？

最近

lyrics (teardrops on my guitar)

haha!

....

soFTBalL~!!!~!!!