She's sayin : hey! You are my bestfriend now.

oh..wow! I do not know wht to respond but a smile. It was very awkward you know..because u have confessed that you never trust a friend..hmm..


Recently many things on my mind..

Problem coming after a problem solved..so difficult..and i couldnt take it and cried in front of my laptop, hugged the big puffy pillow..:'( i really feel sorry.. i didnt mean to be rude..i didnt mean to be ignorance..and i didnt want that to happen..i wanted to help but you still need to grow up though..you re much much older than me..i do not want u to be reliable on me,whom are younger than u a lot of years..

In conclusion, i'm sorry.. :(

TRUST

The trust i have in you is deteriorating.. No matter how close we can be..you'll never take me as ur close friend as ppl always tell u not to believe your friends.. i would not say you are wrong but you have to know which friend to trust ..i was so hurt when every time you tell me about that you are not going to trust your friend..And so, indirectly are u trying to tell me that you are not trusting me..? always wonder..
Since you are not trusting me..there is no reason for me to trust u because i know you would lie to me sometimes..for some ppl..i rather you tell me i'm keeping a secret for someone than u lying to me that you don't know anythg.. that's hurt..Nah..it's not the first time anyway..

hfpm~oh well.. :)

It's new! another me..

Semester 3 started..

First class...

Miss Sukhbeer entered. gave us our sem 2 final result..
WOW!!!! Have never expect straight A's would happen on me..

yeah..got straight a's..but according to secondary std it would be 5B's..

all 70 plus..quite satisfied..but not really happy.. i hv no idea why..

huhff.. single ain't easy..bored..

i Thought i hv many.. but when i check..I hv nothing but a few of them which are busy with their own life..

Got to be independent back..

i thought i was healed... no.. i did not..

the scar is still there..very sad..

i feel like crying evryday..or whn i feel like to..but i scared ppl will ask me..

" why are u crying ' ? i dun like answering tht question..

because there are too many reasons for me to cry...and i dun knw hw to answer tht question..too general...

On and Off i will gt to hear sum ppl say about what my dad said bout me..

evrythg he said bout me was all positive statement..

Why he did not tell me straight to my face..?

why do i hv to listen from others,,.,,,????

why??

i regretted i did not wake him up on tht night i visit him....>.< T.T